May 20th, 2012
relaxedMay 13th, 2012
impatientMay 6th, 2012
exhaustedMay 4th, 2012
Guh. I'm working a 12-hour shift on Sunday. I'll be there from 10:30 in the morning to 10:30 at night. This is gonna be fun.
I'll have to pack two lunches, 'cause you take two lunch breaks with a shift that long. Think I'll pack two energy drinks, too.
On the plus side, I'm taking the week after next off. I so can't wait. Monday of that week is the Rammstein concert, which is gonna kick ass. W00t w00t.
P.S. Scooter turned two on Wednesday. Happy birthday, kitty. =^.^=
thirstyMay 1st, 2012
I've been having some really weird, really vivid dreams lately. I can't recount them here, as I forget almost all of what I dream about a few minutes after I wake up. All I remember is their vividness and their making me WTF.
I have a frequently recurring dream that has me not being able to find who, what, or where I'm looking for. Like, I'll be in a huge school with a really complicated layout, and I'm unable to find my classroom. Or I'll be in a bookstore and I can't find what book(s) I'm looking for. I tend to get really frustrated in the dream. I wonder what it means, if anything. Perhaps a subconscious reflection of how things never seem to go the way I want them to in real life. That's...rather depressing.
My feedback woes concerning my fanfiction continue on. My Bleach fanfic where Yumichika is female is getting less reviews with each chapter. Damn it. I really need to look into getting more exposure, but I don't know where to start. :(
blahApril 29th, 2012
lethargicApril 22nd, 2012
April 18th, 2012
Anyone who's been following this journal for a while (and a few people who haven't) knows I absolutely adore Ikkaku and Yumichika. They're my Bleach OTP, and one of my favorite anime/manga couples, period.
I found a fanart slideshow on YouTube for them, and I thought I'd share. It has lots of very pretty pictures. (The song used is pretty cool, too.)
Here's another IkkaYumi vid. I shared this one a while ago. I'm linking it again just for the heck of it.
And just for fun, here's a ShuuYumi vid (with a very pretty Finnish song) that I also shared a while ago. I think Shuuhei and Yumichika are cute together, too, just not nearly on the level of IkkaYumi. It's a sweet alternate pairing.
The yaoi fangirl in me controls my life. _-_
EDIT: Look, it's a straight couple! One that would never happen in canon, but oh well. It's lovely fanart with a lovely song. That's all I care about.
I love Nnoitra as a character, but I hate him as a person. I wanna kick him in the nuts. He's such a sexist ass.
April 15th, 2012
April 11th, 2012
Just a quick addition to last night's post.
7. Recently got caught up on Penny Arcade. I was laughing so hard I almost couldn't breathe for a few moments. Gabe and Tycho FTW.
8. Here's another Minion video. One of my favorite scenes in Despicable Me. *snrk* XD
That is all. Again.
Just a quick update on some things that have happened recently.
In no particular order, they are:
1. Saw The Hunger Games. It was pretty good. I haven't read the books, so I don't have anything to compare it to, but I liked it. I should read the books. I've been meaning to, just haven't gotten around to it yet. I wonder if they'll film Catching Fire and The Mockingjay? (Probably.)
2. We got my dad's death certificate and ashes. This kinda finalizes everything. My brother-in-law is looking into requesting to have his ashes scattered at the Seahawks' practice field in Renton. He was a lifelong Seahawks fan, so that would be awesome. Here's hoping.
3. Rufus turned five on the 1st. I can't believe I've had him for five years already. This also means it's been five years since we had Tiki put to sleep. I miss my Tiki. ;_; Rufus seems to channel him, though. They have so many similar behaviors. Sometimes I wonder if my past pets aren't watching over me from Pet Heaven. It might sound silly to some of you, but I think they are. Your pets are like your family, after all.
4. Saw Yumichika's redesign from the recent manga chapters. He's purdy. His hair is braided now. More feathers, too. Hee.
5. Updated my Bleach fanfic where Yumichika's a woman. I really need to write the next chapter for my Yami no Matsuei fic, too. Someone bug me about it, please.
6. Farfarello has jumped back into my thoughts lately. Y'know, the one-eyed Irish lunatic from Weiß Kreuz. He and a few other characters have a habit of doing that every so often. Not a lot of people know that Farfarello has a girlfriend. Let me repeat that slowly. Farfarello. Has a girlfriend. In the drama CDs, he meets a girl named Sally and they just kinda...clicked. (This makes me wonder if her sanity isn't slightly off-kilter, too.) I'm not sure, but I believe she's a witch whom Schwarz helped escape from Eszett. I would like to get my hands on these drama CDs, just to see (hear) it for myself. Farfarello...has a girlfriend... D8
That is all.
hungryApril 8th, 2012
April 1st, 2012
March 29th, 2012
I didn't get the job. I'm honestly not surprised. I have a history of not quite measuring up, no matter what I'm doing. I can't even remember the last time I accomplished something of any importance.
What really kills me is, the last two people who were hired for the job, before I applied, have been at the company for about a year or a year and a half each (I've been there almost five years now), and let's face it, don't know the department as well as I do. Hell, I'm still showing them how to do things. But supposedly they're good enough for the job, but I'm not. I feel like I've been kicked in the teeth.
Oh, and they tell me there's some "concerns" about how I work at the service desk. I work my ass off at the service desk every goddamn night. I'm long past burned out on working the same closing shift every single night - I've asked several times for a more varied schedule - and yet I still do as well as I possibly can. Apparently that's not good enough, though. I wonder if I should even bother staying with this job.
It's not like I'm working there much, anyway. My scheduled hours are getting lower all the time. I didn't even get twelve hours on the new schedule that came out today, the one for the week after next. They've apparently decided there are other people better suited for the job I'm doing (or was doing). It's like they're telling me they don't want me working there anymore by barely scheduling me, hoping I'll quit on my own. After today, I'm seriously considering it. Fat chance of me finding another job, though.
Fuck, I hate my life. I have no social life, no love life, and a shitty, dead-end job where I'm barely, if at all, appreciated. I'm sick of it.
P.S. My finances are shit. I don't think I'll be able to pay bills this coming month.
angryMarch 27th, 2012
My dad passed away mid-afternoon yesterday. It was pretty much expected at this point. He'd been sick for a long time, and was only getting worse as time went by.
I can't say I felt anything dramatic when my mom - they're divorced - told me. I've been emotionally detached from my dad for at least the last decade or so. Not to mention, like I said, it was pretty much just waiting for the end to come. Still, he was my dad, and we had managed to develop a civil relationship after my mom and I moved out.
I last saw him on Sunday. He didn't look good at all. I don't even know if he was aware my sister and I were there. We didn't stay long. There wasn't anything we could do but watch him struggle to breathe. It wasn't a pleasant experience.
He was 64.
March 25th, 2012
March 20th, 2012
I had my first interview for the position I applied for yesterday. I'm supposed to have my second interview tomorrow. Gah, I'm so nervous.
March 18th, 2012
restlessUgh. My applying for that supervisor position has me all worried.
I'm worried that if I don't get the job, I don't know how upset I'll be. I mean, the last few people to be hired for the position (four people share it, and one spot is open right now) have worked at the company for much less time than me, and I feel that they - not to be mean - aren't as experienced in the department as I am. At the very least, they aren't any better than me. If I don't get the job, I'll be left wondering what is so wrong with me that makes them decide I can't do it, when these other people supposedly can. I'm dreading being turned down, because I'm afraid it'll really hurt bad.
I'm also worried that, if I do get the job, I won't be able to handle it. The head of the department can supposedly be difficult to work with.
All the uncertainty here is killing me.
March 14th, 2012
These little guys are the best part of Despicable Me.
Just thought I'd say.
EDIT: Here's some more Minion fun.
EDIT #2: And some more.
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